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Things Aren’t Going Well
01:38
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Have you given any thought to where I am
The words you’d say to me if you got to see my face again
Would you come to me with your arms open
Or would you know that you’ve burned down everything
From now on I have to live with these memories
From now on all I see is the door shut behind me
From now on
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Make sure you hide, hide all the scars
Don’t let them find out who you are
You’re here again
A new beginning to a new end
And you never thought you’d have to face this
Hell is here
Realize you are everything they say
Hell is here
Crushed under the weight of judgement
Now you’re trapped, being buried alive
Behind these walls made of pain and lies
Choke on every cry for help as your world comes crashing down
The seams of your veil are ripping apart
Bringing to light everything you’re hiding in the dark
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Night whispered madness
Teasing me silently with its frigid embrace
I took its smug breeze into my lungs
And exhaled with a blighting sigh
My breathe danced off my lips onto the crisp spring air
Moving how our fingers used to slide across each other’s skin
A rising caper, fading into stars
Joining other memories
Never to be relived, never to be relived
Leaving me to suffer with the notion of my own decaying relevancy
This night whispered madness
Sowing with salt and leaving me here to rust
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You were outlined in the fire’s glow
And I wish there was a way to take me back
To be there frozen in that moment
Where the rest of the world just seems to fall away
As I melted into your fucking hands
As each thread slipped away
It was if all my prayers had been answered
Turning the key to unlock
Something I could truly believe in
You were outlined in the fire’s glow
Revealing every contour exactly where it was meant to be
Sight was my only sense not burned away
From the glaze of the flame’s dancing red light on your skin
And as I began to thaw
Everything outside that room turns to ash
Every inviting movement you made towards me
Ignited new temptations I never knew could exist
You were showing me the warmth that I knew I needed
As if you were the devil bargaining for my soul
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We are drifting further apart
Whispers in exclamation points
I see the end
If I could, I’d keep you to myself with hearts intact
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You know why we are here
Cemented in this void and hands bound by fear
I have always known that we’d end up here
Last thing I need is you whispering in my fucking ear
Shut the fuck up, let me think for myself
We suffer because I have lost control
You’ve always ran away
You’ve always stayed inside
You’ve always hid in shame
You’ve always been looking for a way out
Tormented by the thought
That we will never be who or what we wanted to be
Always questioning the validity of our own reality
We will fail at every presented opportunity
And we will never be able to separate the difference between
You and me
You are me
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Now Con tells me, This should ring a bell
The fear, madness and unease
Chained down yet holding all the keys
I say, it sounds familiar. Like a lost dream
Then Con mentions, it’s more real than it seems
The long, empty, endless days
The cold and sleepless nights
Con says, the world will never understand
If I’m blinded by my own hands
I ask, what made him crack?
The pressure of success or addiction clawing at his back
None of the above, Con quickly replied
But neither helped when he chose to cast the world aside
The relationships he failed and the ones that failed him
Are what left the scars underneath his skin
Con says, if you just open up your eyes, you’ll see
This sounds familiar, cause it’s about you and me
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I’m ready to be a memory
Looked back on as a blurred story
A name only seen on old photographs
And heard on whispers from the past
I want my final breath
To fade into the distance, past the warmth of the morning sun
You know, I think I’ve always been a ghost
Hiding inside the dead shell of a stranger
I want my voice forever lost to eternity
I’m ready to become a fucking memory
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Take this lead arrow from my chest
As I gag on the wings of butterflies
Take a chance
I promise you that the light of day will never catch up to us
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Your mind is melting away
Leaving you with nothing but regret
You spent your life working for tomorrow
When you could have lived for today
I bet you imagined you’re the star of your own show
But you’re being canceled due to ratings being low
The finale ends with your tombstone that reads “I’m still living in the past”
The joke being that you did that your whole life, and the studio audience can’t help but laugh
And as your mind enters a deranged abyss
Your sheets act as shackles tying you down in your own piss
Skin shapes to your bones as the years pass you by
Lying in your bed, time fading, waiting to die
Now in your final moments, as death pulls you away
Your only wish is there was someone who cared enough to say goodbye
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When I opened
My newly rested eyes
The sun was staring
Right back at me
Floating in a shallow riverbed, I felt the small fish swim beneath me
And when I asked them, they carried me through the warm water to the grass covered shore
All the hands reached out for me
Everyone and you were there for me
I could smell your hair as you wrapped your arms around me
I remembered
A time that we were afraid
I lived in fear
How did we carry that weight
It seemed so real
Now I feel no pain
And sorrow doesn’t exist
Nothing can hurt us
And when I see myself in your eyes
I know everything will be okay
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Love
00:52
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These silhouettes
They are tangled how water flows
Incapsulated in nothing but bright red
A fever of controlled pandemonium
Fingertips melt off each other
Lips are securely glued
Muscles tighten under soft skin
Read without sight when touched in the right places
Uncontrollable tremors stretch out their limbs
Only to be pulled back by each other’s hands
War rages in a loving violence
And all their teeth are unmasked
Sheets retreat as gods trample their home
Forever conquering each other’s lands
Puzzle pieces slide perfectly into each other
Cause indistinct whispers to break free from their prison
Time fades into smoke that drifts into the background
Swinging to the beat caused by the friction
These two forms move as one like the waves of a furious ocean
Crashing against the cliffs, then gently getting pulled back out to sea
Explosions cause stars to fall from the heavens
And the red turns into the softest white glow
Wrapped in each other’s arms, heartbeats start to play a slower song now
These gods become mortal again
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Here… we are
Just you and me with a full glass in between
The grief… that we share
Is becoming too much to bare
The time… is now
To decide how the rest of this will play out
This… is where
We start to look for the end, for the end, the end
The walls… we built
Are already burnt to the ground
We…can stay
We can live here in the ash
Or… we can jump
Headfirst into the flames
What happened is in the past
There is no one left to save me now
What happened is in the past
There is no one here to save me now
What happened is in the past
There is no reason to stay here now
Hey Darling
Light of my life
Hey Princess
Where have you been
I’m slipping further away
I’m slipping further away
I’m slipping further away
I’m slipping further away
Hey Darling
Could you not see
Light of my life
You had everything
Hey Princess
I’m still down here
Where have you been
I’m still here confused, suffering in this fucking world that you created with words that you couldn’t live up to and then set on fire
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